In 2008 I found myself unemployed and was a bit overwhelmed with my life. So I moved back home.
Finances aside, I think the worst part for me in those days was all the free time I had that made me feel like I lacked purpose. I’ve been thinking a lot about that recently. I am a massage therapist and the place that I work at has closed and I am not seeing any private clients due to the corona virus. Similar to 2008 I have moved back in with my parents.
Thankfully, a lot has changed since 2008. Back then I was frustrated with trying to find a job and I thought my degree in art and art history was worthless. So I went on a lot of walks until I got a part time job and I got my dog. Now I’m lucky in that my love for art has renewed itself and I appreciate the people in my life much more. Life is fuller. I have learned that it is worth loving things, full heartedly. Additionally, I have a better sense of how to structure my time. Making art is a big part of that.
I’m not talking about making all amazing artworks. I’m talking about art making. Right now I’m playing with watercolor which I am no expert at. I’m also trying to challenge myself by working more from my head. So I’m giving myself tasks that are a little more difficult for me, mixed in with easier things, to keep me occupied. Additionally, there’s taking walks with my dog even though he hobbles now and can’t go as far. And there are tons of online exercise classes. Over the past week there have been times I feel useless. It’s bound to happen with what’s going on. However during those times I try to remember the people in my life. It’s heartening to see how people are dealing with the pandemic and working to make the best of the situation and I think we can all strive for that.
I learned a lot between 2008 and now about structuring my time. Now will put it to the test. I know there are other people that struggle with these things. At this time, seeing my colleagues struggle and the country struggle I think it’s important that we find things we love and hold onto them. Work that we love and people we love. Love of life. I hope that we each find something. I am going to try and keep working on my art.